I can’t sleep

Don’t you hate when you can’t sleep because your head won’t stop thinking? Don’t you hate it even more when those thoughts are all to the tune of “Aaaaahhhhh!” and your stomach’s in a knot? Just a few things colliding in my mind last night:

What the heck are we doing?

We have three months on our visitor’s visas, we’ll have been here a month and a half by the time we apply for our residency visas, and said visas usually take 3-4 months to come through. Bad math.

Our apartment is the size of a postage stamp, and I can’t keep the stupid floors clean enough, despite daily sweeping, to keep the bottoms of my feet from always feeling like they’re just padded brooms.

Our pantry is pathetically bare because we’re trying to live minimally and only buy what we need and know we’ll use. Which is almost useless for this late-night, saliva-inducing hunger I’m experiencing that just might make me sick since it’s coinciding with the anxiety that has settled in the pit of my stomach.

I don’t have a job and don’t really know what I want to do.

In the morning we’re getting on a bus to go to some village that’s “just magical” as a surprise trip for Dennis (belated anniversary). We have to get up at 5:30, there’s a 90% chance of rain, and I have zero plans for what we’re going to do when we get off that bus.

Why aren’t we at home in our cozy townhouse, in the same timezone as everyone we know and love, with all sorts of safety nets waiting to catch us should we need catching?

Somebody hand me some tums.

Photo from lobstar28


Huh-oh, having one of those nights, now are you? Shall I pull out one of my famous cliches? “It’s always darkest before the dawn” comes to mind. Love you guys!

Amy–you can DO this. We are rooting for you. Sounds like the Big Orange Monster was trying to take charge last night.

We’ve all had nights like that – no matter what country we were sleeping in. But you can do it! Thinking of and praying for you guys!

Sorry you had a rough night. Stressful thoughts always seem to collide and multiply at night, don’t they? Take a deep breath. It will all be fine. No matter what happens, it will be fine. God’s got it.

I suspect by the time I read this, these feelings had passed, you’d gone on your day trip and had a great time. I’m thinking of you!

It definitely happens no matter where you are in the world!
Now I can’t wait to read the post on the magical village adventure! :)

No true adventure starts out exactly as we envision, but God does have a way of building rainbows over us. You have the love and admiration of all of us who wished we had the cajones to do what you’re doing. Remember the gift of laughter and be sure to tell us where to send goodie baskets!

Hi sweetie! It happens even when you DON’T move … keep the faith, and remember we love you both. HayHay

You WILL look back on these moments and laugh at how outrageous and crazy things were at the beginning, and it will all be part of your story.

Hey, if Prague doesn’t work out there are thousands of other cities and towns around the world to try out. ;)

I know you posted this 2 months ago, but I hope you’re feeling better and enjoying some the the “unknown”.

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